Senioritis is something that I did not believe was a real thing. I would hear upperclassmen above me comment on how they have senioritis and I would simply just think it was a joke or a saying and never really think anything of it. But now being a senior and having only about a month left of school I have discovered that it is a very real thing. My mind is not focused on high school anymore and the simple action of coming to school now doesn't feel right. After the four long years and all the ups and downs high school has given me I’m ready to be free. Now that I work a real job and know that in four months I’ll be living on my own in a different state a simple task like writing an essay feels unnecessary. I have written so many essays here at fairview and they have all been the same, why do I need to write one more. My mind is as far away from fairview as you can get. Seeing all the small freshmen acting the way I did four years ago makes me feel uncomfortable, I'm in such a different place in my life and have experienced so much since freshmen year having to complete the same task they are having to complete and being treated in a similar way as them feels wrong. Also, as much love I love my classmates, I already have my set friends at fairview that I know will always be my friends. So, unlike the freshmen I am not looking to make any more friends than I already have at fairview. I feel I have no point to come to school, Its so mundane and routine now that its hard to force myself to go. I only have one goal and its pass my classes and graduate.  

My human theme this semester is fear. This is because I think that fear controls so many peoples life. Many things people do in there life is based off of fear. Fear of failing; as humans we always want to feel like we are doing the right thing in our lives, We fear that were not living up to what were suppose to be. We fear that we are making mistakes so we try our very best to always do the “right” thing. We fear of what people think, We constantly try our best to impress people because we need the recognition that we are worth something. We fear not being perfect. We act differently because we fear that if we act the way we truly are we will be judged. We fear the future, we fear what may happen to us. Nobody truly knows what the next day, hour, minute will be. This lack of control fears us, so we try our very best to take control of our futures. We fear that we will make the wrong choice right now and we will ruin our future because of that choice. But what many fear most in the future is death. People base their lives on the fact that they will die someday. Some base their actions on the fact that we will die someday. We will never know what there is after death. Some people base their life off the fact that after death there is nothing. It makes us live fuller and care less. But how do you distinguish between what is a rational or irrational fear when we are taught to fear so many things. When we are taught that there are so many dangerous and scary things in the world. I know that I don’t want my kids to grow up fearful of everything, but I don’t want them to think that everything is safe. Fear has control over our lives and society. Fear is everywhere.